A couple of days ago, I went to a crystal store out in Huntington called “The Mystical Crystal.” My friend told me to “pick up the crystals that you’re drawn to,” so that’s what I did. I picked up an Amethyst (my birthstone) and a Rose Quartz (helps release toxic emotions). After I purchased the crystals, the woman behind the register, also a psychic (cool!), let me pick out another crystal from her bag behind the counter. They do this with all of their customers, and the point is that the crystal you select from the bag holds a message for you that somehow pertains to a struggle in your life.
I picked out a stone called Labradorite, which has lots of healing properties that I didn’t know I needed. The psychic told me that I chose that stone because I need to recognize my inner “magic.” The message was essentially saying that if I can’t recognize my inner worth, no one else will, and people won’t take me seriously.
Ummmm yeah hello that was *exactly* what I needed to hear.
I’ve been having so much trouble recently being proud of myself, which really has always been an issue for me, but it’s become more relevant in this past semester than ever before. The stress of classes, being involved on campus, applying for internships… it can get really overwhelming and make you feel really insignificant, especially if you’re anything like me and are impatient AF/ never satisfied with where you are in the present moment. That impatience/ dissatisfaction stems from the fact that, inside, I have a hard time believing that I’m good enough. It’s so easy to get caught up in comparing yourself to other students or other internship candidates (who you literally don’t even know!) or obsessing over how you can make your resume better or whatever the case. It’s a *deep* rabbit hole and it’s really difficult to climb out once you’re in it.
I still don’t really know if I believe that crystal energy is anything more than a placebo effect, but I do know that every time I even look at my Labradorite crystal, I’m reminded that I have worth.
I guess that’s my 2019 resolution: to remember that I have worth. You can’t show people what you’re worth if you can’t truly recognize it yourself.